In the past, you may have gotten a promotion or a new contract. You were noticed for your work in some way and you felt appreciated. You were working very hard.
Presently, things aren't going as great as you would like. You are privately struggling with some apsect of your career. At this time, you need to not think logically. Rely on your senses. Your job is providing a good paycheck, but you yearn for more.
Once you have made the decision regarding your career, everything in your life will improve. You will have more energy. All the negativity from the past will be gone. If you are currently considering a job offer, TAKE IT. It will be a wonderful opportunity for you.
Don't insist on doing everything yourself. It is okay to be vulnerable and ask for help with your career.